Today should fly by it is 6:15, I woke up early (15 min. ago) because Jonah is reading a good book and he asked me to wake him early so he could read before school. I do not remember any of my kids wanting to get up early to read unless it was for homework they did not complete the night before!
Last night while were at the condo, waiting to pick up Emma from dance, I was able to work on my album. Our family has had so many good times together and made such wonderful memories that I can not wait to start making memories with Wendy's family. I only wish we lived closer but Arizona is not that far away and when Dad was sick I was going home every couple of months. I do not mind the drive and have done it by myself a few times. Anyway, long story short, somehow I am going to get those pictures downloaded so Wendy can see this side of the family! Times like this is when I wish I had actual pictures and not just the ones I have in the computer. I do have some albums I took when we cleared out Mom's house but they are too heavy to take on the plane. Jonah was looking at the pictures of Wendy's family and said " Wow, you mean we have five more cousins!!".
When I chatted with Hunter on FB a couple of days ago he said he is so excited to go to Phoenix but his dad is a little nervous, which is what Wendy had shared with me a few weeks ago. Since then, I have been trying to put myself in his shoes and figure out what his greatest concerns are. I am nervous but it is more of an excited nervous. At first I worried, like anyone would, what if they don't like me, but I had to get rid of that feeling real fast because I am Who I am! I do not feel that is Dave's feeling. I keep coming back to the feeling that he is afraid Wendy will get hurt, that she will be disappointed after searching for so long. Maybe he is concerned about how I will fit into their family. Well, we are different but so are many family members who have a long history together. Even the children I raised are different but they still love each other. The Colorado girls are so different it is hard to believe they were raised in the same family! I wish I could ease his fears, and concerns, but I do not know how to address them. We will take one day at a time then go from there.
NEWS FLASH: I went upstairs to wake Emma and guess who had fallen back to sleep!
I think I was rambling in the last paragraph, so just let me say, deep in my heart I know this journey is a good thing. Wendy will be the one to decide where she want's our relationship to go. If she chooses to continue, I will be there, if not I will respect her wishes. In the final scheme of things...Wendy's feelings, wants and needs are of the utmost importance to me.