Oh what a tangled web we weave,
When first we practice to deceive.
-Sir Walter Scott
When I left off yesterday, I was living in the White Mountains of Arizona with my Grandparents. This was a very peaceful time.My Grandmother taught me to knit so I spent my days knitting and watching TV. Also, I had friends who were stationed in Viet Nam so I baked cookies, made fudge and sent care Packages to them.
Now for the hard part. Like I said before, being a pregnant teenager in the 60's was kept hush hushed. Girls were sent away to special schools to keep the SECRET. My mother, and grandmother, concocted so many lies to keep the SECRET that I had a hard time keeping track of them.
1. I had Valley Fever--that is why I was not in school.
2. I was recuperating in the White Mountains.
3. They bought me a little wedding band--I was married to a man
stationed in Viet Nam.
4. I kept the secret about the NIGHT--my Dad had a very bad temper
if someone crossed his family-He might have gone on a manhunt!
Oh what a tangled web.
Here is the most amazing thing..my brother, Kevin, never knew I had a baby until Wendy came into my life. He wanted to know if I have any other skeletons in my closet! Actually, he and Debbie, my sister-in-law, have been very supportive. Hopefully, Wendy and The Davis Clan will be able to meet soon.
I had told my daughters years ago that I had a baby when I was sixteen. When I told them about the Search Angel, they were surprised, loving and very supportive too. I can not answer for the three girls, but I am sure they have gone through many emotions. I know for myself, this has lifted a huge weight from my shoulders. I did not realize the magnitude of the guilt and sorrow I have held for all these years! I wondered if my baby was OK, if she had a good life, if she was loved and treated well. Now these questions have been answered. With the answers, I have found an inner peace.
-to be continued